small update

YAY for awesome skin on webcam, i still look chui anyway *gets bricked* jus one of the random days me and lawliet webcam in school *hugs twinneh* dont stress k?

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anyway. jus a record of what i did over the weekends.

on friday, i PONNED. hahahaha first time ponning leisure. felt damn good man. din have to stress for that one cls =A=ll
i went to bedok to collect costume from Ayu den after ah gong sms me.
so i guage the time or so, realised that it was possible, so i arranged for breakfast with ah gong. It was a pleasure as usual, eating with him, always so humorous.

Then, after that, cabbed over to shinn's to slack. cos he can hash internet and on leave. hahahah XD listened to him play guitar, critic him, den i went on to watch sengoku basara. I WAN COS DATE, non-helmet version[god i hate the helmet design]
I swear that sengoku basara is one of the coolest anime which i like that can make me fall asleep while watching =.=

I remember i watched it once at home, fell asleep.
den i watched it at shinn's, felt sleepy, so i off and go to sleep also. LOL!!!
its like Gackt's music, i love his music, but i fal asleep listening to it =w=lll

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on sat, rot at home the whole day =.= no motivation to do ANYTHING.

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on sunday, went for the stupid standard chartered marathon thing. oh gawd. you know how disgusting it is to massage legs with like 3CM long curly hair? and why are you guys like so fucking budget, like, USING COOKIN OIL FOR MASSAGE? in the end my bed decided to change to the mr joint pain cream, which was so much better, smelled like choco mint also.

After that the whole thing, went to wash up and doll up at city hall toilets =.=lll hahahahah cos i be bimbo. LOL.
met up with rina, lawliet and naoya to discuss about the skit at bugis library, den we decided to change to another series for second set.
Went to play daiko at iluma, played one set[4 songs] with twinneh, den twinneh chui.
After that i had this stupid surge of energy so i played another 2 more sets [3 songs each]. so played like 10 songs. but i wasnt still wasnt quite satisfied when i left the arcade.

den slack at the open space near coluessuem.more pointless discussion.
den twinneh treat me to Ma Maison, damn nice prease. Halfway through our meal, DD joined us.
more and more discussions.

after that we went to J.co to slack and discuss again. Everyone was rather tired and stressed out by this skit shit. we decided to change back to KHR for both sets again. did a rough plan out. and went home.

I was so tired on the train that i went to sleep den this irritating woman who was wear a blazer, her blazer end keep swiping over my head [i was facedown on my bag which was on my lap] so i got pretty annoyed...

reached home at 11, bath, online a bit, bth, slp ==;;;

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on the good note. my EOY cos is jus about done. *happy* now lets home my wigs arrive safely. i really dont want any cock ups for EOY...

Dedication <3

HAHAHA i remember how we joked that himu mom ordered us in a bundle pack...

SO THIS WAS HOW ME AND LAWLIET CAME TO THE FAMILY 8D hahahahah my sleeping pose is so unglam XD

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Anyway anyway 8D

my post dedication to the most insincere but cutest pair for the end of this year <3
I dont know why either, but the moment i know it, i was all smiles the whole day. Guess this is what a big brother feels like when he sees his sister happy 8D

hime-chan~ - i'll kick you if you ever make my twinneh sad or annoyed.but being the NICE GUY that you self-proclaimed, you wont right? i'll take your word for it.

twinneh - i still love you <3

hahahaha my best wishes to this pair of insincere idiot couple <3

8059 be mine @ 80Lawliet X 59Naoya

AFA pictures *coughslongoverduecoughs*

some random pictures first 8D



dingo's cat



has a kind of guren effect


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hahaha okok
FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER.

i m postin picture of me, WITHOUT makeup. gawd.
i contemplated for so long sia =.=lll

this is how crappy i look before every cosplay 8D


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one hour later...

AH HAR 8D


HAHAHAH huge diff right?! i know =3=lll

mika-chan


den i saw zander when mika dragged me to go see kaname.
hahaha long time no see. i only took his face cos he was jus beside me 8D;;;


kaname


CAMWHORESSSSSSSSSSSS

with toky 8D







with twinneh




with naoya


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day 2

with haru[wtf at you luh]


with twinneh


with darryl


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my steals from DAY 1 8D

AFA exhibitor pass 8D = free tic in
katana [sasuke's] - early xmas present from mika-chan
three drawings from kame's booth [uru, ruki, miyavi]
kame's deviant - http://little-kaiyou-kame.deviantart.com/ PLEASE SUPPORT HER DURING EOY09 TOO!!


on a happy note.
i can hash 2.5k views on my deviant. >w<>

Sudden urges

hahaha bryan say i look like a blackpeace now model. ROFL

anyway, i have this sudden urge to blog. so i'll edit the pictures tmr, but i will still blog now.

jus now in bathroom after bathing. one of my eye turn red for no reason. irritation and all.
when i was lookin at it in the mirror, it reminded me of the numerous times i have cried during the recent periods. well not cause of those stupid comments.
Many people think i m strong, but thats negative, i jus dont do it outside. I only tear in the privacy of mah room and mah nice wittle toilet[which is being abused by my family] hahaha I am also a being after all.
I cry, well not like BAWLING cry, but silent cries. i can jus look into the space, and den suddenly overwhelmed with emotions and my tears jus break loose.

LOL MUCH RIGHT?

but yea. it happens alot. especially this half of the year. Usually happens when i m just reflecting on my actions. feel kinda stupid, but ah well 8D it life isnt it?

I am just wondering now. Should I keep my hopes high, and continue hoping or should i just break down those hopes before it gets smashed? I know i m given promises and all but knowin well, its is kind of unpredictable. Its the various things that was done that made me uncertain, because I thought i know well enough, but things that was done just surprises me, takes me off guard, and brings everything down.

*taps taps taps*

i dont know.

lookin at the various words...

hmmmm

ughhhh

i think i m about to get annoyed really soon.

THIS DOESNT MAKE ANYTHING MORE DIFFERENT DOES IT
den why the fuck am i doing it for? its defeating all purpose...dammit

ok. now I AM ANNOYED. *slams into wall*

i need sleep i think....*headache*

randum stuff 8D

I changed my handphone accessory again 8D
love this alot
The words says: ambition, fear, betrayal and love
part and parcel of human life i guess 8D

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ANYWAY. on to RANDOM STUFF FIRST.

these pictures were taken when my parents came back from korea <3 it =".=">

and pages from Korea magazine/newspaper style 8D

wooo 2NE1




g-dragon


we also had an epic haul. but i m not going to share it here. hahaha or mayb i did and i forgot 8D *gets bricked*

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something random me and chiru drew in the cls 8D;;

uruha~


ruki-chan


Aoi-baby


reita-kun


kai mommy


the whole set


after that she re-draw Aoi but i like the first version better
and Miyavi was also added. hahahaha

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Patience is the key to everything
Questions are useless

Shoots Shoots AND MAWRRRRR 8D

BRS @ AFA
courtesy of January-Chan

Anyway. things have been happening, and my photos have been piling up 8D but i promise.
it will be up by tmr. 8D so on top is a contribution from Jan first 8D

I m just glad that I did not back out from the shoot from pressure.
There are shots which came out pretty nice <3>
The photogs are nice to work with, but of course some of them just pisses me off with their wrong attitude D8 but well, some of them are first timers, so i guess its ok.

After that we went to celebrate kaito's, yuuto's and Ki's bdae >w< shoot =".=";;;">

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And today, i m so glad that i dragged my lazy body up and did all my makeup and stuff. It was an epic day.

Thanks to cutepetz for organizing this shoot 8D I m going to like go in some order...i m hopin i dont miss out anyone =.=;;;

Chiru >>> hahahah she be as epic as usual. made me laugh during a serious shoot =.= damn you luh, den after that we sat at the pool and started singing those love songs tv uses for advertisements. HAHAHAH it was damn crack.

Lawliet >>> twinneh a bit in active today, but i think she's tired already from so many days of chiongin and shit =.= so yea. *hugshugs* you still look adorable today~~~ love you

Sakurazaki ghey bro >> hahaha saw her in her normal state today. still so chio <3 her ="3="/~<3"

raistlin>>> seen this name around. Now i know the person behind the name. on and off cosplay looks DAMN DIFFERENT prease. hahaha but super nice guy. he is our ryuushitsuji today 8D hahahah the dragon butler XD

Rinya >>> SO LOVE HER HAIR /0/ the first person i disturbed after steppin into the dining room. looks like sleepin beauty when she was lazing on the long couch luh. den i go extra and arrange her dress =x

laoda >>> hahaha HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN SINCE WE DID A SHOOT TOGETHER? /0/ so happy seeing you again even though you make me look under-dressed.

thelindra >> 8D pretty snow princess. i was like UWAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 0w0/~<3>>> *poke* hahahahha it was fun randoming with her 8D

Alex >>> WE MEET AGAIN 8D hurhur XD not much of a saikang lawls. *pokes*

Gino[is it spelt like that?], Amano and rescend? >>> nice working with you guys 8D

swiftwing >>> HAHAH DID YOU SLIM DOWN? 8D he look like he did though.

Blacklash >>> hahahahha now i know what they call you 8D so epic. today this woman wore PINK. so different from my usual image of her 8D so fun also. cos like swiftwing was taking her pictures den i had to rearrange her. she's like a human mannequin 8D she can hash manry hands ;A; *feels that i m a fail*

Aya >>> hahahah SO CHIBI PREASE. hahahah damn cute luh. she was the innocent victim that was kenna dragged and dressed up by cutepetz. After that I sorta taught her ballroom dancing. It was fun seeing her squeal and panic, but hahah she catch on very fast. I m jus happy my toes are safe from being stomped on 8D after we stopped, she was still bouncing around by herself. hahahaha a new name for her, pink fruffy thingy. HAAHAHHA

but anyway. today i wore this 120CM wig.
The moment twinneh saw me, she say look like gakupo, but kaito's colour
Chiru said it looked like Gui
Ghey bro say i look like a freakin vampire. hahahah

den we came up with a theory

I am a new singing program character in vocaloid, my name is Kakupo. My tone is tonedeaf.
at that note, everyone keep laughin. it was so nice to see everyone laugh <3

btw our[me and raistlin] supposedly butler and master part, was a bit fail imo. cos like
WE LOOK LIKE KAITO AND GAKUPO. HAHAHAHHA damn funny XD

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this section is for a certain person, that person knows it if that person reads this.

I am fine now, but this will go on for a while as I feel that there is a need to. I have seen how you have grown stronger day by day while I am by you. Now I am not, i still expect you to do the same, I am glad that I am seeing it[be it from the messages or seeing your online status]. I want to see you stronger and more mature den ever the next time I see you. This situation between us is not forever, till den, i know you'll be stronger. Just push on, I'll be here watching you change.

Shit just keeps happening doesnt it?

If this keeps up. I dont think I m EVER going to get around to posting those lovely camwhores pictures =3=;;;

Honestly. I din know that cosplay can become such a taxing thing for me other den dealin with people saying i m a cosfuck.

http://shiroin.deviantart.com/journal/28588896/#comments

dont know what the hell i did to offend this guy.

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correct me if i m wrong ar.

cosplay is a hobby
cosplay includes tailoring, wigcutting, makeup ETC ETC which is categorize under art.
ppl like art as a hobby
ppl uses art to earn cash

using cosplay to earn cash = wrong?
can anyone tell me HOW WRONG IS IT NOW PLEASE?
correct my thinking with a good enough logic to convince me.

what bout those cosplay jobs? like giving out flyer, promotin event. how is that any different really?

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shit just piles up one after another.
the exhibitionist comments
my own relationship problems [this one hit me real bad. i m still paralyzed from this]
and now this?

feel damn tired sia.

nevertheless.
I am still going on with this shoot.
those ruthless comments just disappoints me.

makes me wonder if i should continue cosplaying or not...

but I WILL LUH OF COURSE. i wanna finish up my list =3=;; and i dont want to disappoint ppl who are lookin forward to them.

procrastination post AGAIN

ANOTHER EMO POST BECAUSE I PROCRASTINATE ALOT.

happy stuff first.

Ciel is officially 15 and Yuuto is officially 17[along with a faceup i screwed this after and i m going to redo later in the afternoon]

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Gettin trapped is the last thing i want.
It has always been the last thing i wanted.
I enjoyed attention but i do not enjoy possession.

Everything that I give should not be taken for granted and as if it will go on.
Alot of people have done that to me, and i've crushed a few.

How many times can a person be disappointed?
How many times can a person cry in a lifetime?
How many times can a heart breakdown emotionally?
How many times can a person get hurt physically?
How many times...

How many times must I ask myself all these questions?
Just. how. many.

Those words which I never let them leave my lips easily were doubted tonight.
Every single thing that i did. were doubted.
even though it was taken back and were explained
but things that were said will never be taken back so easily from me.

This is the start of the test isnt it?
Guess what. I dont even wanna try.
likes a maths exam. i'll prolly sleep through it.

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remember my prev post bout suicide?

HAHAHA NO NO NO. i m not taking it back

i jus wan a memory loss. 8D


OKAY. TIME FOR BED.
i dont know when i will post the BRS photos. but those who eager? TO FACEBOOK 8D hur~

GO TO HELL

dont mistake.
GO TO HELL is one of Gazette songs. i think its damn cute.
but i really feel like saying to alot of peeps

anyway anyway. i apologise to all readers for such emo posts these few days when all of you are prolly expectin nice AFA pictures. i'll get them up by tmr, i promise.

but allow me one more emo post =.=;;;

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One guy whom i rejected used to tell me.
I am a rose with a rotten core.
A rose that attracts people, hurts them with thorns but they wanted to look at it, only realising it's only nice on the outside.
I got angry.
I made the guy disappear from my life the second day.

I used to get angry when ppl tell me such things.
but now i dont. Because I have learnt to fully accept it and turned it against them.
I used to hate roses because of that. but now? i love roses. to death.
literally to death i tell you since i m sensitive to flower pollens which could kill me 8D;;; well. could be the keyword, not confirm. HAHAHA

Ever since i turned 15, this was the warning i gave everyone.
Be careful of me.

it was so much negativity you know? I learnt to neutralised it though, and nowadays i hardly say much.
Compared to when I m still like 12, the frequency of me talking is almost halved.
I've learnt to be kinder to people, I've learnt to accomodate.
I push myself
I stress myself
every single shit, i take them all.
I am still learning. I still am.

Everyone keeps telling me, you are strong etc etc.
let me tell you why
I do not allow myself to be intimidated.
the moment i fear someone, i will lose to them.
that was a very precious lesson taught to me by someone.

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okay. honestly.
two hours before this i was filled with anger AGAIN. but not due to the AFA thing, its somethingelse.
I had so much to say, but after i bath and sat down here. I forgot. all the anger turned into disappoinment and remorse, dont even know how that two shit get together. HAHAHAHAHA 8D;; ah well.

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I am so randomly bloggin know since i dont know why i opened this page for anyway.

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i m not really afraid of flesh wounds like cuts and burns, cept for the fact that they leave scars.
What really hurts is when you cant breath, when something clenches and you dont know what the fuck is the cause, or something jus throbs. Wounds that you cant see are the ones you should fear the most.
Both physical and emotional wounds.
So much have been inflicted.
It hurts, but i just stare and stare.

I've learnt that it doesnt matter.
Its only a matter of time till everything disappears for real.

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suicide is a stupid thing to do.
I had thoughts of it when I was in Secondary school.
but nw. fuck that.
its a stupid thing.
I still wish that sometimes I will never wake up.
but i have too many important stuff that I m too selfish to leave behind.

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on a nicer note 8D

CIEL TURNED 15 ALREADY 8D yesterday. i forgot to blog bout it in the midst of my rage =.=;;;

AND YUUTO IS TURNING 17 IN 30MINS 8D

dont ask me why my boys are so close to my age. BLAH. i like it like that. /0/

Post-AFA rage

I am not going to put a picture for this post. because this is Rage post. rage psot do not deserve pictures / memories.

YOU KNOW SOMETHING?!

AFA IS A FREAKING COSPLAY EVENT, A HAPPY COSPLAY EVENT YOU FUCKTARDS.

this is a post event rage before I move on to something happy, like camwhores with my lovelies.

1. CREDITS.
This part is my rage specially for the fucktard who commented on twinneh's profile. You wont find it cos twinneh deleted the stupid comment. It POISONS her profile.
SERIOUSLY? Credits belong to both PHOTOGS AND COSERS. stop sayin that we cannot fucking claim credit for a certain photo. If there were no cosers, where the fuck you get to shoot? If there were not photogs, where the fuck you get photos?

BOTH PARTIES HAVE EQUAL SHARE IN CREATING A PHOTO AND CLAIMING CREDIT FOR IT. people who are not involve in the creation, and saying that cosers should stop claiming credit of a picture should fucking fuck off.

This is a mutual process/agreement/respect between US COSERS and PHOTOGRAPHERS. People who dont know this, you know no shit at all, so shut up.
I respect people who take my pictures and giving me credit, and I give the same credit to people who take my photos. I just happen to hardly remember every single photog, but if anyone wants me to credit them and can prove the photo is taken by them, no doubt i will do so and so will other cosers.

2. About our BRS dressing
stop fuckin saying we are exhibitionists, strippers or wearing nothing. WE WERE WEARING SOMETHING FOR YOUR INFORMATION.
Lawliet - CLOAK, bikini top, shorts, boots
Me- CLOAK, scarf, binders, pants, boots
We took them off for a short period for other pictures due to the fact that it was also reflected in the BRS video

We are not the ONLY BRS cosers in Singapore so why do you guys target us? did we offend you in anyway? if so, DO TELL US.

I really dont get it. Even my mom, who is a very conservative woman praised me on my BRS cosplay. If you guys dont believe: http://www.facebook.com/#/photo.php?pid=30808442&op=3&o=global&view=global&subj=580149132&id=1034635316 here you go.
TOH POH KIAN is my lao bu, my very dear mommy who gave birth to me.
did she rant and say i was wearing too little? no.
She did comment say we only wear very little top is it? den i said yes, expecting to recieve a scolding. She only replied me on FB that it was still a very nice shot and very good cos. She also told me that[good job and all] personally at home and but was also concern on mine and lawliet's safety. lawliet's mom did not gave any harsh comments either.

If our mothers can accept it so well [btw this is our first daring cos together], i dont see why you guys should comment so much on it.

FYI. we are not the first cosers of BRS in SG, neither were we the only BRS cosers on that day. Stop puttin us in such a negative light when we work so hard for this cosplay and we are proud of it, esp lawliet who put in more work den me.

for those who put us down, you are guys are sick. just leave us alone. we dont need friends like you, we have friends and photogs who support and love us as much as we do to them.

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on the lighter side. i shall upload the photos after editing 8D we have alot of happy camwhores and there are sets of neoprints for both days in our FB. 8D
Thanks for the support and the honorable wall for our cosplays.

TWINNEH >>> LOVE YOU ALWAYS 8D